Reality?

She asked me to be realistic.

jus very last night, zy gave me hope. he told me i could do it and he listed all relevent points to convince me that i can do it. i was convinced.

i saw her today. she told me im not hopeless. so i told her my daring dream. she told me to be realistic. i was left shattered. called zy almost immediately and i almost cried. if i weren't given hope, i wouldn't have lost hope.

am i suppose to accept it?