.Lost.
I'm lost. Totally lost. I'm unsure of my identity now. I don't know myself now. I don't understand myself now. Who and what exactly am I? I don't know.
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I'm still brooding over my dropping of econs. I saw the disappointed look in Xian Hui and Lin Hui today. I felt.. I don't know how to describe my feeling at that moment. I wanna cry. Cry it out and it'll be fine. But, crying over my final decision is totally dumb. Especially to Lin Hui, I felt like I've let him down. Though it doesn't sound that serious but imagine somebody talked to you for 48.27 minutes trying to persuade you and I actually was agreeing with what he said. Haish. Said sorry to him but I think it's dumb too. Totally dumb.
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My principle being let down. Promise made by myself broken by myself. My way of life went haywire. I'm lost. Totally lost. I lost my principles. Lost my promises. Lost my way of life. How am I going to carry on?
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It's really not that serious. Saw my friends dropped subjects and they seemed relieved and happy. I'm feeling really down. Who can understand me?
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How am I going to live on without my principles?
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Spirit dead.
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Mood gone.
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Diana vanished.