All these while, no matter how tough life is, I've been trying very very hard to keep myself on the bright side of life. I kept telling myself all these will end and as long as I work very very hard, as long as I've tried my best, I will not let myself down. No matter how much problem we're facing, I always tell myself there must be a way out.

I have always been running. Until now, I can't run anymore. A dead end is right in front of me. I kept questioning myself, what happens if I cannot by pass this ordeal? What will become of me? Or is it time that I should come out of the sandcastle I've been building in the air, is it time that I should face the reality? I'm tired, but I can't rest.

I hope today is just another pmsy day. I hope the thoughts that ran through my mind were just random thoughts. But nonetheless, I really appreciate friends who stood by me through all these tough times.

Zy, maybe it's because of your wonderful presence and crappy encouragement that made me hold out this long. But I need to hold on a little longer.