Want to be daring!

Yes, I always think I'm the sort of person who lacks the guts. I'm always worrying about the nitty gritty and its always holding me back from doing anything beyond usual.

So now, I want to be different. I realised that I'm already 20 and I've done nothing that I really wanted myself. I'm always going with the flow, following want others decide because I cannot really decide for myself and probably never really believed in my own decision.

And now, in the midst of wanting to be different, I don't know what I really want for myself. I sound stupid, don't I? It's even stupider that I spent a quarter of my life (estimated) envying others. Hmmm....

I think I do sound stupid. =/