I was employed the past week. Got to work with zy and jj at ABV Warehouse where the manufacture of conveyor belts, pulley system etc are. We were in charge of the packing of the sample belts and pulleys into aluminium demostration kits. Even though I worked for just 3.5 days including the coming Monday, I realised how "not serious" I've always been.

Jj was teaching me how to fix the pulley cover into demo-kit. So I did one with the label upside down. Jj exclaimed (as usual) :" Why did you put it upside down!!! ". I thought he was being too fussy and replied :"Does it even matter?". Zy overheard and said:" Hey! It's the matter of product quality. The salesperson would bring along the demo-kits and these kits determine if the products can be sold!". I felt damn guilty for my lousy attitude. I should learn to be more accepting and listen to people's reasoning before I rebuke and stand up for myself. Because, I might be standing up for the wrong reason.

Another incident was during the recent instructors' meeting. We were discussing about some problematic cadets. My first reaction was, why are we even bothering about them if they don't even bother about themselves? We can't control everything. And again, I felt guilty over what rah said. She mentioned about those people's CCA points and it would all be wasted if we don't bother about them. Oh man.

What's becoming of me? Am I turning into some selfish monster or what? Where are all the principles of life and my passion of inspiring and motivating people around me? Shucks. I must change! Mustn't let this pessimistic wave come over me. I need the bright cheery optimistic SUN!