Hello everybody. If you ask me how's life. I would say life has been good to me despite the nonsense that I'm facing now. Life will always be good, depends how to look at it. Now, I'm stuck with some principal of life.

A Level Result. Not a desirable one. Not good enough to make me jump for joy. Not bad enough to break down. What should I do now? I can't decide what I want for my life. I'm in the borderline situation whereby I'm unsure if I can even get into the lousiest university course which I don't know what. Patrick said," In a long term, it's not the degree that matters the most, it's the attitude towards whatever job you are entrusted to in the future." That's the most comforting words I've heard so far. Subconsciously, do I really want that to happen? Well, I can say, " No degree no degree lor! I will show to people that I can do as well without one!" Do I have the guts? Can I do it not following the norms? Am I going to the like the Creative boss? Am I that lucky one? And all these questions boils down to----- What do I want in life? I don't know.

In previous posts, I said I wouldn't mind going to poly for advanced diploma. From there I can go on to pursue my degree. That means I have to go through another 7 years of education. That means I have to spend more money. Will my family be able to support my education fees? Do I want to give them more burden? I don't know.

So, I'm in this part of life where I'm really lost. Dreams aren't dreams anymore when reality sets in. What is dream? What is dream when you aren't even sure what to do? What is dream when you aren't even sure if your fatish lasts? I don't know.

I really need help. Any souls who bumps into my blog, if you know the answer, please tell me.