the uncertainties of life.
I'm feeling calmer now. Little Samuel passed away due to pneumonia. It's just too sudden. I saw him 2 weeks ago, as talkative as ever. Now, he is lying in the pure white coffin. Seeing his picture, I thought of how I liked him when I first saw him. So I striked the first conversation and we went on and on talking non-stop about games, Youtube, ghosts. His friends called him the King of Gameboy for completing 30 games. He's just like any other kids despite having Cerebral Palsy. I believe with his intelligence, he could have completed his PSLE in no time. His voice rang in my ear, calling me jie jie. You will be dearly missed.
Bodhisattva Ksitigarbha, please help to lighten Samuel's Karma and bring him away from sufferings. Please guide him to a happier place and be a happier person like he was. Amitabha.
I was walking home from tuition today. I had this fear of returning to Cerebral Palsy Centre to volunteer. I'm afraid of establishing bonds with them and I'm afraid I have to face the tragedy of losing someone again. I love all the kids there. It would be a terrible feeling to see someone I know on the obiturary section again.
Then again, I thought..
death is parts and parcels of life. No one can escape from it. Why should I be afraid? Instead, shouldn't I cherish people around me, kids in CPC, my friends.. Ya! I should go CPC more often. Not only cherishing my own life, but also cherishing other people's live because they exist and in one way or another, make my life difference. Life is too unpredictable to whine, to argue, to fight and to sob. No matter what happens, life will still go on anyway.
Just as my heart started to waver about being a strict and religious Buddhist, this incident made me felt that I will never know what happen next and if I don't start or continue, it might become too late. Dharma is hard to practise especially thoughts. But I will work hard.
Thanks gl for accompanying me to the wake just now. Thanks ul, valr and haosy for attempting to cheer me up. Friends are great, cherish them!
Bodhisattva Ksitigarbha, please help to lighten Samuel's Karma and bring him away from sufferings. Please guide him to a happier place and be a happier person like he was. Amitabha.
I was walking home from tuition today. I had this fear of returning to Cerebral Palsy Centre to volunteer. I'm afraid of establishing bonds with them and I'm afraid I have to face the tragedy of losing someone again. I love all the kids there. It would be a terrible feeling to see someone I know on the obiturary section again.
Then again, I thought..
death is parts and parcels of life. No one can escape from it. Why should I be afraid? Instead, shouldn't I cherish people around me, kids in CPC, my friends.. Ya! I should go CPC more often. Not only cherishing my own life, but also cherishing other people's live because they exist and in one way or another, make my life difference. Life is too unpredictable to whine, to argue, to fight and to sob. No matter what happens, life will still go on anyway.
Just as my heart started to waver about being a strict and religious Buddhist, this incident made me felt that I will never know what happen next and if I don't start or continue, it might become too late. Dharma is hard to practise especially thoughts. But I will work hard.
Thanks gl for accompanying me to the wake just now. Thanks ul, valr and haosy for attempting to cheer me up. Friends are great, cherish them!
posted by Di @ 10:46 PM
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