life can be way too scary sometimes.

i don't know why. its just this sudden sense of loneliness that hit me suddenly. and when no one seems to be really there for you. you just have to do and face things alone. and because people around you arent close enough for you to reveal your true emotion, you have no choice but to keep hiding it and continue smiling even when you're already dying inside. even when the someone you love is there for you to talk to, you chose to talk about the happier things instead because you dont want him to worry about you.

and guess what? i dont even know what is going wrong. i just feel that whatever im doing is just so meaningless and yet its taking so much out of me. life can really suck as i grow up.