motivation.

My hell week is over, almost. Survived 10 hours outside, taught 4 tuition lessons in a row. I'm starting to wonder if it's worth going to and fro, twice a week to Woodlands to tuition my cousin. Sometimes I feel that my auntie just don't appreciate the fact that I had to travel one and a half hours to her house and another one and a half hours back home. She doesn't let me complain that I'm tired. Whenever I said that 3 magical words, she'll start blabbering about how youngsters like me shouldn't be complaining. Well.. Well.. On the other hand, seeing my cousin improving each time I go, gives me some sense of satisfaction. But I wonder how long this sense of satisfaction will last. Fatigue seems to be more overpowering. ):

I just took up another 2-week-tuition assignment, teaching the kids how to do well in Oral. Haha. I just have to teach them how to talk crap to impress the teachers. Hope that I can survive the intensive tuition weeks. I barely survive today. After 2 tuitions in a row, I was in a oh-so-blur state that I accidentally went into the gents and still wonder why nowadays the ladies got uriner. After a nanosecond, then I realised I was in the wrong toilet. =.=

I was wondering how I managed to keep myself perky despite having so little free time. I finally know the answer today. I just realised that I have this habit of thinking of all the happy times I had with my family and friends. I found myself foolishly smiling to myself when I thought about the old jokes and the lame stuffs. I love to reminisce the happy times. Then.. Comes the imagination. I often imagine the future, imagine what others are thinking, imagine the impossible.. I always have weird imaginations. And often those imaginations are the ideals I want in life. Sometimes, I will just smile to myself when I found my imaginations amusing. Weird, right? I always smile to myself even when I'm alone. I will not resist my smile whenever I find the sms on my phone funny. If I had to burst into a laughter, I'll bite my cheeks really hard, and my face will cramp up. Haha! I'm weird, again. How impactful friends are. Even when they are not around, they are still my source of motivation. (: And of course, thanks to my cancerian buddy for the never ending entertainment. But I hate you! Haha.

Alright. I'll be over in Pulau Ubin over the weekends. I'm not ready for the camp and guess I have to be by tomorrow. I'm so not feeling excited about it and I wonder why. Hmmm.

Bye then~